Tomorrow and the Tomorrows

Tomorrow would be the first day you will be moving-in to Kampar.

There is 3 questions that keeps flashing through mind right now.

What will happen next? What will happen next? What will happen next?

I don't know why am I even thinking this way. In fact, I somewhat have

been waiting for this day to arrive.

When I happen to think about it, you do mean quite a lot to me.

And yes, I have thought about being with you before. In fact, many times.

However, inevitably, things just fell apart, each and every time.

I don't know, and definitely, I am not throwing the blame on you.

I guess its just... me, after all. I can't even tell if my perceptions are set

right or otherwise.

Optimistically, you are someone I could really portray my real personality to.

You are always here to be willing to listen to my rants and my lame jokes and for

most of the time, I think you would say the right things at the right time.

Pessimistically, I tend to pull-back at times for reasons which I can't be sure of.

I know that you are trying hard to give my some time for my own space.

The thing is that, what I feel about you is that you are still so young and

naive deep inside you. Am I being prejudice or are you really that inadequate?

To me, personally, I think love has got a lot to do with compatibility.

I don't know how tomorrow is going to turn out and what more, the tomorrows.

I guess I am still going to give it another hit. Sighs, I'm not going to prove myself

right or wrong this time. I'd just follow the rhythm of the wind flow.

It is not as if I am not going to give a damn but I guess its good to make speculations.

Its the same even when you invest in a car or a house. Love is just another investment

in life, I believe. However, a very large investment that would either cause you to fall

and hurt as hell or, be the happiest person in the world. So, I guess I'm not going to do

any decision-makings too soon. I know I'd just be even more devastated.

& the funny thing is that I've been telling myself to NOT think about it and take things

the way it is now. Well, I am single now and I guess I'd just enjoy the advantages of

being single? Haha What a way to end this post huh? lol

...love will always be there awaiting you if you await it.

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